So today I stayed in, skyped my Mam for ages and tried to get back into the swing of things.
I think I am feeling better, it is helped that I was surrounded by people all day and of course my Mam brightens every day! I told M that I was feeling bad… she said that she is sure that everything will be fine. The way that she said it made me think that she has never had the depression thing before.
I have decided to go along with my plans to go to Vancouver tomorrow (even though Mam didn’t want me to) and to see how things go. It is only for one night; two days so I figure things can’t get too bad. I am hoping that there is a DVD player in the room so I can watch Father Ted. This always makes me laugh!
I am looking forward to having a room to myself aswell. It means that I can sleep whenever I want and I don’t have to worry about making any noise which will be great because I am such a noisy sleeper.
I have also finally decided that there is nothing wrong with taking help if I need it. At home I see a counsellor Lucy. She makes me feel so much better… she doesn’t even want to see me any more because I had improved so much since she had started seeing me. But the problem is, this relationship and the results take so long. If I have another bad day I have decided that I will go to a doctor and ask for help.
I just love my Mam so damn much!